sleepy day

I spent the day trying to get ready for my bridge four-some tomorrow, however, I was fighting sleep all day. I have been trying not to drink much coffee because of the caffeine. I had to give in this evening and have a cup of joe.

I think I have everything done, but this is really too much work...we should really be going out for lunch. We had tried it once, but Dixie did not want to do it. Anyway, Sandra will be moving soon and then I think we will abandon our little group.

The Dr.'s office called to say I needed more thyroid med...maybe that is why I am so tired all the time.

I obsessed about that crazy Mary Englebreight pillow and I still can't find it. I hate to think of all the time I waste looking for things that I put away and can't remember where I put them....Hmmmm it does bother me.

Margie and Max were here for a short time today. Max seemed so happy..and Margie is cute with her new work clothes on. I have been used to seeing her in shorts and t-shirts.

Later,

Mom

summer time

It is still a hot summer, but I did see some leaves falling today. That is a good sign that we will soon have fall and not soon enough for me. This has been a very hot summer. We have had a busy summer with company and then a trip to Cincinnati last month.

Gary has gone to Jake's soccor game and then to see him mom at the home. This will be another busy week. Tomorrow is WW and then swim classes start. Friday I have bridge here at my house. I wonder how long we will meet, as Sandra is moving to AZ. as soon as the house sells.

On Friday Gary and I went to OakBrook and I think I have made a final decision on my dress for the wedding...I always like to have the option of returning if i find something I like better. Gary got his beloved I-Pad and has been playing ever since. He likes toys as much as I like clothes!! We are a pair!!!

Seems we will not be going anywhere any time soon, as his sister will be gone for the winter to AZ. and we will have to stay here with his mother.

I am looking forward to seeing Maggie and Joe and also Joe O. over labor day.

Later,

Pat

Facebook???

Beth is home...Margie is going to the Cubs game. I hope we get along okay with Stuart.

Gary home already???? He repaired the faucet in the bathroom that was leaking and I fixed the bed skirt in spare bedroom.

Today is Chris' birthday, and he is 49 years old. He was born on a Sat. and was the biggest baby in the nursery weighing in at 10 lb 1 1/2 oz.

It is very warm and humid today...Heat index of 115 deg. I hope it cools down soon. We are lucky to have AC.

later...I am going to try facebook again.

Sunday struggle

We went to church this a.m. and out to lunch, came home and watched an old video of Maggie and Jane when they were at Franklin. It really does not seem that long ago, but really it has been 12 years.

Today I am struggling with the thoughts of why we are still in this house. I look around and I love what I see and I would be sad to leave. Everyday there are so many things that need to be done that we either don't have time...or money or ambition to do. Perhaps we would be better in a smaller place, but then how would we get along...as we are rarely together in the house...hmmmm. There are way....too many "things" in this house. This too shall pass....stay tuned...I think looking down the road to 75 and 80 years of age...are we really likely to be able to do even what we do today...which isn't much. Vern mowed the yard today and we haven't even had time to get the car washed since we returned from Cincinnati.

Gary is taking Jake to the stock car races tonight...I think I will stay home. Jake will stay overnight, but needs to go home early, as Gary works and I am going to WW in the morning.

Well, I think I will go watch Clint Eastwood for awhile....

Later,

Patsy Montana

Moving day

Maggie and Joe moved everything out of the basement today heading for Urbana in a U-haul truck. It takes me back in time.....you know how you never forget some things....I will never forget as our "home" was slowly headed down the street also headed for Urbana, the words...."it's Holy Water"!!! Gary has had to put up with all my old memories lately as Maggie embarks on another chapter of her life.

We have had a busy day...we went over to Margie's house, since she is out of town and let Stuart out. He is something for such an old dog!!!

Then we went to Panera's for bagels and then the kids and moving.....Joe's mother and sister were here to help, also Lexie's husband, and of course Jane. She looked so cute today and glad she is feeling better.

Jake comes tomorrow and Gary is taking him to the races. Olivia will come over on Mon. and we will go shopping for lip gloss!!!!

They will all be starting school soon and we won't see them very much. I always think the time goes really fast from Aug until Christmas. It will be different this year ,...with Maggie with Joe and Beth and Joe in AZ. I am happy for both. One day at a time....

Later,

Pat

Thurs.

Beth left for Az today. Gary went to work. Maggie did not come in time to move boxes and Jane is sick. I talked with Chris for awhile. I hope he will be coming this way soon.

I made brownies and lemon bars. Gary and I went to the airport to pick up Beth's car. It is not so humid today. I ordered a pair of gold shoes today. I must remember to pick up my shoes tomorrow at the shoe hospital.

Gary's mom called and wants me to make an appt for her at the eye dr. She has a broken blood vessel. Not sure if they can do anything for that, but I will call.

I have my twitch back in my left eyelid. I better start drinking the tonic water again. I am really good about caffeine and choc, but I sure don't like the tonic water.

More later,

Pat

wed. August 4, 2010

Hi,

The weather radio I gave Gary for his birthday, nearly scared us out of bed at 2 a.m. this morning. I think there was a storm. That thing has to go into another room. I used to sleep through thunder storms.

I went to the Y this a.m. and then to pay taxes and to the grocery store. Margie, Max, and Beth are coming for burgers tonight. I have had my nap and now should start something for dinner.

Lesley and kids were here this morning. We were trying to find a time for them to sleep over, but everyone is so busy....us included...maybe Sun. night.

It is still hot and humid and not much sunshine. My knee seems a little better....but have been taking a lot of aleve. Maggie comes tomorrow to move her things to the garage.

Beth leaves for AZ tomorrow and Joe will be here on Labor day.

I better get busy......

Since the computer crashed, I did not get to write about my tragedy with my tooth!!! OMG!!!

It was terrible.....I will write later.

Mom

hot and humid

I wish I was in SF right now....the weather is terrible here. It has been a lazy day, but quite a few phone calls. Maggie will be moving out of our basement and into her new apartment in Urbana. She is so excited and I can relate to that about 50 some years ago when I was moving to Urbana. It seems like a long time ago and then again it seems like not so long ago.

I thought my life what be perfect leaving the Univ., however, you sometimes have to walk through the fire as it comes to you. Life is not perfect....but I still think we need to think that it will be so we can look forward to the happy times.

Now at 74 I wonder what is ahead for me...., things I don't do any more.....wear high heels, shorts, halters, but I am basically the same as I was in my 20s. I have more shoes and I never did like to drive.

More later,

Pat

I can't believe I found it!

When our computer crashed...I really thought that my blog was gone forever. Well, we did replace all the windows and decorated the bedroom. I only have to work on getting the countertop replaced in the small bathroom.

Very warm and we have a really busy day tomorrow..

More later,

Pat

the battle is on!!!

Brad called to say our windows are in and they are ready to install. Now the fight has begun about when they can come.....do I dare ask to do the rest of the decorating to the bedroom??? Is it worth the effort and fight???? Makes me want to buy a new pair of shoes......I would like to be happy, but somehow feel sad. After the work is done, will I always remember how difficult it was to get Gary to agree???? Will it take the joy out of really having it done??? Seems like a small thing.....

Ok...it is a beautiful day today....I will try to get outside and get some sunshine.

Thought for today....remember people are like sand in your hand....if you squeeze too tight, it falls through your fingers.

Sister Ann

Quiet Thurs

When I returned from bridge yesterday, Jake was here with Grandpa. He is a sweet boy, but soooo quiet....maybe it is just that boys don't talk as much as girls. I went over to Beth's to take a pkg. Gary threaten to take my keys away and my drivers license because I had trouble getting out of the garage!!! I know my behind is big but that garage is tight!!!! I am not going to fight that battle because I have the decorating of the bedroom to get through!!! Life is interesting!!! Maybe the battle is not worth it....and I do like daisies......stay tuned for this one!!!!

Beth and Jane are coming over tonight. I think both want to do some laundry. I don't have much to do today. I should be thinking about Easter and Tom and family here for a few days. The basement is in need of a lot of cleaning, I have not been down there since the last time they were here at Christmas.

This week-end will be busy...we have an E.Star funeral tomorrow and a luncheon on Sat.

Yes, Margie, a little vodka in that tonic water may be the answer or is it gin and tonic??? I used to be a well seasoned drinker, but not any more...I gave up drinking and smoking for eating and shopping. LOL

Sister Ann

Water exercise day

It is still gloomy today, but reasonably warm. I learned a new word today from Lesley, our swim instructor at the Y. The word is supine....now if I could have a reason to use it.....I will work on it.

Last night we went to our E. Star meeting. I am thinking about calling our instructress to let her know that something was passed by me. I don't want to sound petty, but on the other side....is this just the beginning. You can't learn new things unless people are willing to let you try. More later....

Gary is down stairs pounding away...and I will be leaving soon to play bridge....I hope I win today....not for the money, but I don't want to appear stupid.

I am reading "Precious"....yikes...very graphic....it makes adultery seem trivial compared to all the incest in this book. It is supposed to be a true story, but who knows????

I don't have a thought for today except to try not to complain and talk less and listen more.

Patty Ann

p.s. Still clean.....no caffeine, alcohol, choc. and drinking that God awful tonic water with quinine. (no twitter for about 3 days)

p.s.

No twitter for 2 days.....still no caffeine, alcohol, choc. and that God awful tonic water.

stay tuned.....

is winter really over????

Finally we are above freezing....it can't be long now until spring. I suppose we say it every year...but it seems like a long....winter.

Jane and I went shopping yesterday....I never pass up a chance to be with "my girls". We always have a pleasant time and I don't feel pressured to hurry up!!!

I am trying to keep ahead of my summer ants, by cleaning drawers and cupboards. Hmmm they are nasty little things.

Jane and I talked a little about divorce and how it affects not just those who are directly involved but so many people. I had to dig in my memory bank about my own situation. I had to sell my organ for $300 to pay back taxes....why do I remember that...because I had to ask my dad for the money and I knew they really didn't have all that much. The government waits for no one. My telephone was cut off even though I had paid the bill because of someone else. There were many big things....but I think you remember the things that really hit you emotionally. I have never been bitter and always try to remember the "good times".

Today I am looking forward to seeing Beth and how happy she is. Jane told me that she had never seen her MOm so happy. She has a very positive attitude about life and the respect of little children. She will always be successful.

Tomorrow night we are having dinner with a couple we met on our bus trip, maybe it is an omen that we should take another trip with them . I hope so...I love being around happy people and always looking forward to something in the future.

Thought for today....."Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles....it empties TODAY of its strength."

Happy Trails to Maggie and Jane and be careful.

"Gramma talk"

I am thinking spring

Is is just me or does everyone (woman) have a desire to spruce things up a bit when spring comes around. Gary is giving me fits about wanting to redecorate the bedroom....I begin to question myself and perhaps his thinking is better than mine. I always want to live in the moment and he is always looking beyond and warning me of living in the high rise. (and broke) Maybe the high rise would not be so bad after all.

Of course, my justification for the bedroom was that we did not go on our trip to FL. which would have cost the same amount. Oh well, you know how it goes...."it is better to live in an attic than a mansion with a nagging wife." Enough bitching for today....

I am so grateful that I have NO twitching for 2 whole days.....

I going to swim class this a.m. We always have a good time and lots of laughs. Tonight we have a meeting.

Later Gator,

the haughty step-mother

yesterday...

yesterday was not the greatest!!! I have not done anything different, and I did have my twitter back a lot yesterday. I think perhaps I think about it too much. Gary went to the eye Dr. and I did not go with him, because it is a woman and for some reason I sense that they don't appreciate me being in the room. They did not find anything new with his eyes and put in a temp. prism in one lense. Sometimes there are things that we just have to live with, unfortunately. He is very moody, but I don't walk in his moccasins.

My brother sent me an email that Pauline had her surgery and he was not able to come down because she is needing more help than she thought. Hmmmmm she now HAS to talk to him. Interesting.....I sometimes think things happen for a reason....time will tell.

Gary and I went with Margie to Max's play. I just look at those kids and wonder what each will have to offer to the world someday. I am sure they will be our Dr.s and lawyers, accountants, and professionals in another just 10 years. Ten years goes by so fast.

Dorothy will be coming over with her new outfit for her class reunion. I must keep in mind that her style is not my style...so be non-judgemental.

Tomorrow I start my water class at the Y and then playing bridge with Joan. I will not miss that because Joan does not get out at all and she so enjoys playing bridge.

My thought for today; "be kinder than necessary, because everyone is fighting some kind of battle."

Pollyanna Patty

Sunday Brunch

We enjoyed a very lovely brunch with Joe and Beth and the girls. They make a very nice couple...I hope everything works out well for them.

Dixie called to say she could not play bridge on Fri..so I will be able to attend my water class and then we are going to Macy's in Peoria to do some shopping.

Even though there are no signs of spring, there are a lot of activities springing up for Spring.

Gary has an eye appt. tomorrow morning in Bettendorf...I hope he can get some help with the right glasses. He has to take his mom to the eye dr. in the p.m. and I will go with Margie to Max's school play.

Thought for today is just silly....."easy peasy, lemon squeezey"

Mom

no twitter...but need tweaking

Today I want to give thanks for the favor of Jane's bubbling personality....you can't learn it.....it is a gift. Maggie has the favor of very logical thinking....someone you want around when you may be in a state of indecision. The favor of Max's quiet intelligence. Quietness is very peaceful. The favor of Margie and her quick wit which keeps us laughing and her strong character. Someone you always want on your side. The favor of Scott and his commitment to family and church. The favor of Beth and her self-confidence to step out of the box and be her own person. The favor of Chris who always remembers to call and he has the favor of being the most honest person I know. (Sometimes it is a curse to be so honest). It is a gift. The favor of Gary for being predictable.....some people have it and others not. It is heaven to know that you are not running around on empty!!!

My thought for today:::: "Sticks and Stones will break my bones, but Silence Breaks the Heart"

Tomorrow I will write about my favor, but that should take up the whole blog!!!

Smiles,

MOm

Monday more snow

Yesterday was Valentine's Day. We went to church with Margie, Scott, and Max, and then to brunch at the Lodge. It was a very nice lunch and I learned what a "benie" is. At first I thought they were referring to George Lopez's Mom. LOL Margie is funny. I felt a really good connection between Margie and Scott. They make such a good looking couple and I wish all the favor that they deserve.

In the afternoon Beth came to do some laundry. We had a nice talk about her interesting adventures. We never know where our lives will take us in the journey of life. I feel more confident about the future of my kids than ever before.

If I could get Gary well...my life would be sweeter than it already is. His personality is not as positive than mine, but I always have to account for the fact that we come from much different backgrounds. Mine was much less critical and free spirited than his life. We are a good match....he has so much talent, but does not think so because for so many years of degrading. Well, I am not the therapist....so just take care of Patty Ann. I was a product of "daddy's girl" and my ever generous and protective Mom.

My thought for today is "he who gives...gathers"

Mom

Sunny Saturday

Today we went to a funeral for a 97 year old lady. There were only 10 people there. I suppose if you live that long, most of your friends and family are all gone.

I have decided to go back to my swimming class. Now that we are not going to FL. I have the time to do it. I like walking for exercise, but I am fearful that my knee will give out on me and I would really like to pass on knee replacement if I could.

Gary is somewhat better, but still off balance. I think it may be his eyes since I notice that he keeps changing one pair of glasses to another.

I finished the memoir of Chesley Sullenberger. I don't often have favorite heros, but this book touched me by his integrity, as he says in the book "integrity is doing the right thing when it is not convenient". I recommend this book....what a man. It is refreshing to read about someone who doesn't always think about just himself and always giving the credit where credit is due. He is not a greedy man. He is still wearing the water soaked shoes that he had on when he landed in the Hudson. Besides my dad, I have also been very touched by Tim Russert....I cried for days when he passed away.

We ate out last night and then went to North Park for awhile. I am looking for magazines on how to decorate my bedroom, but they are all about kitchens and bathrooms. Once I decide on a color, it should not be toooo difficult.

As much as I don't want to say this I must...no twitter for 3 days.......no caffeine, alcohol, choc. and I am still drinking that God awful tonic water. Stay tuned....does anybody read this????

Until later,

Pat Swanson Vandemore Davison Hansen......can you get all that on the tombstone????LOL

cold day

Gary finally slept in bed last night. He seems better to me, but very lethargic and not his usual self right now. Hopefully, this too shall pass.

I have mundane things to do today....but that may be refreshing after all the chaos in the past week.

I won 2nd high at bridge yesterday!!! Yippee....I finally found some people I play with and win.

More later....Gary home today.

Thought for today...."look at the facts before you get your knickers in a twist. "

Patricia

p.s. no twitter yet today.....but it is early....I miss my coffee....I miss being a size 12 too, but that's not going to happen. LOL

more snow

I think I could really be somewhere warm (not hot), but I am always grateful for my nice warm house and the people who come and go here.

Gary is still sleeping in his chair at night. It seems very strange to reach over and he is not there. Hopefully, this shall pass soon and he will be back where be belongs. I went to the Dr. with him yesterday....but I guess I am always suspicious and don't believe that he just has an inner ear problem. Time will tell.....

Janie's car is back in garage and I hope that this time it will be repaired for at least to get through the winter. I feel so bad for her walking in this snow and freezing temps.

I will be going to Joan's today to play bridge, but nothing pressing except getting Jane's car to her sometime today.

Still clean....no caffeince, alcohol, choc. and drinking tonic water.....twitter is better but not gone. I lost a pound....no exercise, but probably because I haven't had any choc. Yikes!!! I will have withdrawal signs soon.

Thought for today.....think about the people in your life

Who matters

Who never did

Who won't anymore

And who always will.

Always a Mom

hate to make phone calls

I had to cancel our FL. trip to Naples. It just seemed to risky to be driving with Gary's condition. He has been dizzy and off balance since Thurs. night. He can't seem to put his head down. Anyway, I hate losing our deposit, but sometimes you have to do what you have to do. I will make Dr. appts. today, and hopefully it will be a simple inner ear problem. Is anything ever "simple'? The bright side is that we have been everywhere and seen everything so....we are luckier than the average bear!!!

I spent the day with Maggie and we managed to get her laundry done and see Jane at work and do a little shopping. I love being with the girls and I liked that they talked about staying here when they were little.....how time flies..... Those girls have a special bond with each other. I always wanted a sister, even though I have a great brother, there is a special bond between sisters. I think that is why I have such close girlfriends. That reminds me that Dixie took me to a seminar and lunch on Sat. Dixie and I both have the same shoe fetish. Saturday night Gary and I went to the movies and saw "It's complicated". Funny but I think it helps if you have been through a divorce.

I am still clean with no caffeine, alcohol, chocolate and drinking tonic water with quinine....still have the twitter......this too shall pass (I hope)

Thought for today....take good care of your health and everything else will fall into place.

Patsy Montana

unusual day

Yesterday we ordered the new bedroom windows and a new slider for the family room. Both were really needed. Ever since we lived here there has been a bb hole in one window in our bedroom. Of course, getting the windows is just the start....we need to tear off wallpaper and paint, etc. More later....

Gary was very out of sorts yesterday. He slept in his chair all night, which is very unusual. After lunch we planned just a simple trip over to Jane's to jump her car and take it to Farm & Fleet. We had quite an adventure with Jane's car stalling on J.D. road and had to have it towed to F.&F. All is well now and we went to dinner at the Village.

I have my little twitter back so I will not be writing everyday now....trying everything suggested online to get rid of the annoyance. Suggestions: rest eyes...stay away from the computer.....no caffeine, alcohol, use warm compresses, massage, and drink tonic water.....wow what's left????

LOL

My thought for today.."make friends with people you know you can call at 2 a.m. and they will help you".

Gramma

sleepless at Hansens

Gary had a really rare occurrence last night after going to bed. He was sure he had another bleed in his brain stem. If he did, there are no noticeable changes in his looks. I think when we return from FL. he should have another MRI and try to get into Mayo in Rochester.

Today Brad from Best Improvement will be coming to order our new windows. I think we really need the slider and I would like to replace the bedroom windows with 3 dbl. hungs. Then I can start working on taking down the wallpaper, etc. It has been up for 35 years...I think we need a change.

After lunch we will try out the new Garmin and try to get Jane's car running. I hope it will only be the battery, but whatever, she needs her car!!! I have some errands to run this p.m. and then I want to take Jane to the Village for supper.

Thought for the day.....'take good care of your health" you will need it when you get old so you can do the really fun things!!!!

Pat

Wed.

I really goofed yesterday and forgot to write in my blog....

I mainly worked on laundry and sewing yesterday. I hemmed Gary's sweats....I wish they looked a little better, but really they are SWEATs. I also sewed buttons on his work pants so he can use suspenders with the pants. I noticed he was wearing them today for work. I had to buy a new thimble to get through the material.

Dorothy and I went to the seamstress to have some clothes altered. I always have balloon pants because my waist is too big for my hiney.

It snowed Monday night and Vern did not shovel, I think Gary has scared him away. However, sometimes he would overdo and shovel when we only have an inch.....of snow. I will have to catch him next time. Vern is great, but he needs exact orders....and I am the one to do it!!!! LOL

I made a visit to Beth's apt. last night. As I was driving out of the garage, it occurred to me that it is seldom that I ever go anywhere by myself at night. Anyway, we had a nice talk and I hope to visit more with Margie and Beth. I think for many years I was so afraid of interfering in their married lives that I only went when I was invited.

I am still off the caffeine and choc. I miss both but it is better than twitching eyelid. I have noticed that if I get a little stressed, I have a little twitter....this too shall pass.

My thought for today is "Trust people who are trustworthy" It really hurts my feelings when people don't trust me.... I will never promise anything that I can't handle.

Daughter-in-law Pat

Monday

I started the day making cakes for tonight. I am serving lunch for a meeting.

At 1 p.m. I went to the eye Dr. and agreed with Dr. Johnson that my twitch was not related to my other chronic problem. He said it is quite common and it would go away. Actually, I have not had a twitch for 2 days now. I have really cut back on my caffeine and chocolate.

I went to the sewing store to buy a thimble and then to S.P. to make a return. Later to the Foot Dr. to care for my sore toe. I am exhausted already and I haven't made the meeting yet.

I talked with Chris today and Margie for a little while.

We need to get Jane's car running. Dan is looking for a dip stick, but that won't get it running. I wish he would be more gracious about helping the girls with their cars, but I don't know the whole story.

My thought for today...always work from a list and do the hardest thing first.

The redhead

p.s. Have you ever noticed that redheads are always portrayed as either the wayward other woman or rather heavy and not so good looking????? Just a thought....I like my red hair.

Monday

Sunny Sunday

I was up early this morning and had my usual 1 cup of coffee....I used to drink nearly the whole pot before noon.....

We went to Margie's church today and saw Max put out the candles behind the altar. He looks so grown up in his white robe. No babies any more.....

After church we picked up Beth and had lunch with her and her new friend, Joe. I liked him very much. I think he is a "straight shooter".....and he smiles a lot...I like that in a person.

Gary has gone to visit his mother and I am wondering what we will have for supper....with such a huge lunch.

I finished Jane's laundry and I was so glad to be able to help her out. It was fun ironing those little short skirts!!!! I guess I haven't said how much I like to iron....you really don't have to think too much and yet there is something theraputic (sp) about it.

Tomorrow is a very busy day.....will write later.

Patricia

p.s. no twitter today...yikes....it is 4:49 p.m.

Sat with the girls

I had lunch with Jane and Beth today and then we went to N.Park.

More later....too tired. I been helping Jane with her laundry....I think I saw some Christmas socks in there!!!!

Not much twitch today....maybe the caffeine was really the cause.....stay tuned.

I am dying for a some choc......"money talks, but chocolate sings"

Gramma

most unusual day!!!!

I must have forgotten something today. This is very strange for the house to be so quiet and I have no place to go and the phone has not rung all morning....hmmmmm. Maybe it is just what I needed.

Gary got up very early today....around 4:30 and went to work in the dark and zero weather. I went back to bed and turned the electric blanket on and slept until 8:30!!!!!! That is VERY unusual for me!!! I think it is a reminder for me to reflect on my misgivings and appreciate what is right rather than what is wrong.

Just for today....let me be more aware when shopping or spending that Gary is up at 4:30 trying to keep us warm and comfortable.

Just for today...let me not be critical of others because they don't think like I do. I am not always right and perhaps I am a bull headed Swede.

Just for today let me be grateful for what is working right in my body, rather than what is wrong. There are people who have much more disabilities than my little twitch. (not happening so far today) do you really think it was the caffeine??? Oh how I wish.

I keep asking Gary if I will be okay and he always says yes because to quote my brother "it's hard to kill a Swede". Sometimes he tells me the story about the little girl riding in the big truck singing songs with her dad.

Enough of the reflections for today....Yesterday I had lunch with Dorothy and Karen. Karen was quiet for Karen. Dorothy was lovely as always, but not quite so flashy as usual. I told her that I hurt my back vacuuming and she volunteered to do it for me. LOL The funny part is that she REALLY means it!!! Karen said you can do mine!!! Dorothy and I sat in the cold car for about an hour just talking. I don't see her very often, but when we get together we always have lots to chat about.

Looking forward to tomorrow with Jane....what a sweetie.

More later,

Patty

I hurt my back Thurs.....

I did manage to get something accomplished today while waiting for Dorothy to pick me up for lunch. I vacuumed the kitchen and family room...so dirty and hurt my back. I need Margie back!!! I should have known better to do that much. This too shall pass.....

I also hemmed Gary's sweats (driving attire for FL) this a.m.

It is only 9 degrees outside...Yikes!!! I only wear wool sweaters if the temp goes to zero, but I have a sweater on today. Later we have a OES funeral service at 5:30.

I think tomorrow is not so busy...except we are going with Beth to a Augie function.....she better write or call and let me know what to wear.

My thoughts for today...I don't own a thimble....and I think they are all plastic now...what good are they???? As I was hemming Gary's pants, I remember mending some black kitchen chairs that were falling apart at the seams and wondered if anyone would still do that...probably throw them out.

later

should not be using this today

It is almost 10:00 a.m. and I have to be at Joan's at 11 and Russ is coming at 10 and I don't have my hair done.....I am crazy woman.....I should not be doing this, but no time later.

The old saying about "sleep on it" is really true. After I slept on all the issues I was dealing with last night...I feel much better today. I am wondering if I or (we) are pressuring Jane too much to go to Sweden....She may just not want to go. After all, she is young and will have many opportunities to go traveling in later life.

I did want to share this with you that I read this morning:

Oceans to Enjoy

There's an old story about a little frog that was born at the bottom of a small, circular well. He and his family lived there, and he was content to play in the water. He thought, Life doesn't get any better than this. But one day, he climbed to the top of the well and cautiously peered out over the edge. Lo and behold, the first thing he saw was a pond a thousand times bigger than the well. He ventured farther and discovered a huge lake. eventually, the little frog hopped all the way to the ocean, where everywhere he looked, all he could see was water. He was shocked beyond measure.

Are you enclosed in your own little well? Look out over the edge. God has oceans He wants you to enjoy!

Just a thought for today and also I thought it was cute that Gary asked if it was ok to wear his sweats while driving to FL. because he noticed that Jake and Max wear them to school. If Gary is reading this, sorry, but it was just too cute not to mention.

We are good for each other because...sometimes I can't remember how to get to the 3rd floor of the dr. office even though I have been going there for 15 years and he never makes fun of me.....that is a Good Man.

More later....must get something accomplished today!!!!

Patty Ann

p.s. beware....I am drinking just half amount of caffeine....eye still twitching....

Botox Tues

I went to WW this a.m. at 9:30....pleased to weigh in at 3 lbs lighter.....I would just like to lose enough for my clothes to fit better.

Then we went to Dr. Johnson for my 3 month injection of Botox. I told him about my twitching eyelid and he said he did not think it was related to my neck problem. He thinks I either have too much stress or too much caffeine. I think I will work on the caffeine, as I really don't have any stress that I know about. The Dr. said your married aren't you? I said yes, but he is pretty easy.

Later we went to Lesley's house to pick up some old cupboards that she is discarding and also picked up 2 kids. They are still here...Jake has basketball practice at 6 p.m. and Livie will go home with him then.

I have not accomplished anything today...except to make stew that is in the oven. Just not enough time today.

Later,

another snow day!!!!!

Gary took my to see Dr. Johnson today. He replaced my cap that I lost at the Chinese restaurant. He is such a sweetie....he never charges us full price and then gives us a discount for paying in full.

We went to lunch at the Olive Garden after the dentist and then we stopped at the Four Seasons. I promised to be only 30 minutes, but it turned into an hour. Oh yes, I must confess that my guard was down and I had to buy some really cheap clothes. A kind of silly animal print skirt for only $16, a really cute black and white jacket half price, gown and robe half price (nice for FL. in Mar.) and a really cute swinging basic black dress. If I could just bribe my girls over here to help me put these things together. I know I have some really cute outfits, but I am not good at piecing them together as I always go back to the basic colors and style that I think look good on me and everything else hangs in the closet.

When we got home about 2:30, Gary had to go out again to take his Mom to the foot Dr. He says his whole life has been running women around. (It keeps him out of the taverns) LOL

Tomorrow we go to the neurologist and I am hoping that the botox will take care of my spastic eyelid. I have not noticed it too much today....maybe I was on a "clothes high" and it was not so annoying.

I try to accomplish at least one thing everyday...even though we were gone much of the day. So today I washed Gary's new sweats and hemmed his work pants and ready to sew buttons on so he can wear his suspenders. Well, it is not much, but it is something. We just had leftovers for supper....nothing to brag about, but Gary never complains.

I was supposed to play bridge with Eva's bridge club today, but she left a message that they cancelled....probably because of the snow. They don't ask me to sub very often, but their regular sub just passed away.

Later,

Pat

p.s. I actually did make it 25 days of not clothes shopping....that is plus for me.

Sunday afternoon

Still a gloomy day....we went to church this a.m. Margie and Beth and Max came after church and we talked.....Margie liked the Chai Latte k-cup I bought for her.

Max is staying while his mom goes shopping. I have much to do, but it can wait. I need to hem pants for Gary and some ironing. Tomorrow is dentist day and then playing bridge with Eva's group at the WindMill.

Later,

Mom

glum Saturday

I have been shopping, but no clothing so the other doesn't count. I went to the pulmunary Dr. yesterday and she gave me 2 samples of advair.....that is a savings of about $200. Gary's appt. was successful, however, he now needs a colonosopy (sp) I can't find the spell check on this thing.

We ate dinner at Bishops at South Park and then walked to Dillards. I bought some cute little fiesta juice glasses..Beth thinks they are good for beer. Who would know???/

Today Beth was here in the a.m. She was happy happy....that is good. After lunch we went to the Y and walked about 30 minutes and then Gary went to Menards and I went to Target. I can always manage to find something I like at Target.

We are staying home tonight and I think I will watch Cleopatra. There isn't anything worthwhile watching on T.V.

I still have the twitch, but I am getting kind of used to it!!!!!

Patricia

Busy Friday

GAry has an appt with the gastro place at 10:45 and I have an appt in Davenport at 1:00 p.m with the pulmunary dr. Our calendar is full of dr. appts. and Star stuff. There's no time for fun stuff any more, but what is fun any more????? A movie would be nice or a restaurant where you look down on the menu instead of up. I have my old friends from Geneseo, but as a couple we have very few friends to call upon. Just a passing thought.

I decided to go to the eye assoc. with my ticking eye lid...I just couldn't get past Dr. Johnson injecting botox into my eye muscles. Seems logical to me, however, when I called the eye assoc. you have to go through the channels. I already know what is wrong..stay tuned..I could be wrong, but usually we are not wrong about our own bodies.

The ice is starting to melt, but that brings on another set of problems with too much water.....I am just a bundle of good news today.

Gary will be working on Fri. so I guess we will not be going to Chicago.....I just better be ready when he decides the time is right.

I am a little discouraged about my eye....but better days ahead.....tomorrow is Sat. I will call Margie....she always makes me laugh!!!!

Later,

Mom

weather is better today

I need to make myself a reminder to not schedule dr. appts. in the winter time. We live in the midwest and always forget about the weather when the sun is shining. I do wish we could get out of here for the winter months, but the only way I can convince Gary to do that is to sell the house an rent an apt. in 2 places. I am just not ready to do that for now because I truly like living in my house. Looking ahead...we probably will not be doing any traveling in 5 to 10 years.

Gary went to work this a.m. and I am just wasting time. I have lots to do, but it is not urgent. Last night was the last night to take out the dogs and nearly fell on my patoot....it is really icey out there.

I am sick of hearing about the scuttle on NBC about Jay Leno and O'Brien. I agree that it was a bad move for Leno to take the prime time slot....what if Carson had done that ...would Leno had a chance??? OH Oh there goes my tic in my eyelid. I know what it is....but I am trying so hard to say it isn't so. It is always something.....so could be worse. I see Dr. Johnson (neuro dr. ) on Tues.

I am still thinking about taking in a Haiti child....but Maggie reminded me that we have children right here in the U. S. that need help. I suppose we are really too old.....but we could sponsor one. Just a thought that one could make a difference in someone's life.

I am playing bridge at Joan's tomorrow....can't feel bad about anything when you see her in her little electric chair with her little leg warmers on....poor Chuck is in zoo zoo land. We start playing for $ tomorrow....so my luck will probably change. I have been playing fairly good...the girls in Geneseo are soooo good that I never have a chance to get any kind of score. The main focus should be on having fun and exercising your brain....as I don't like to play games on the computer like Gary. If that is food for the brain....Gary's will go on forever...he loves the games and sudoko....I hate those games.

Sassy Patty

Weather Watch

Another day of bad weather in the midwest. I have a dr. appt this p.m. in Davenport...hopefully, the t.v. has enhanced the report and it won't be soooo bad....

I still have the twitch in my eye lid. Wishful thinking that it will go away. I am not looking forward to getting botox in my eyelid, which I think the Dr. will want to do. It is one thing to have 9 shots into the neck, but my eyelid!!!! More later.....

Gary was up early this a.m. to go to work. His ex let the dogs out this morning since he had to go to work and then we will let them out this p.m. and that will be the end. Lesley returns tonight about 9 p.m.

It looks like we will NOT be going to Chicago tomorrow because of the weather...so that means we will probably go on Sat. if girls are interested????? Let me know,..... if you are reading this blog.

Gary is doing well with his exercise and diet and I am proud of him. We all know how hard it can be, but in his situation, it is most important because of all the side effects of diabetes.

Last night we went to a meeting. The lady had 2 cats....Ugh...I don't why I hate cats to much....but I was uncomfortable all evening thinking those little rascals would want to touch me and I would hurt the hostess' feelings. We talked about a lot of things....childhood etc. I remember as a child that my dad owned a trucking business and we always had a few truck drivers sitting around our kitchen table. Well, you can figure out what kind of language they were speaking. I was playing next door, probably with dolls, etc. and I called my friend an S.O.B. Her mother sent him home and I was completely surprised because I did not realize what I had done wrong. It must have made a lasting impression on me as I remember it like it was yesterday. The moral to the story is...be careful what you say around children.

Patty Ann

It is Tues Already????

How time flies....Sunday we went to church and later the kids came for supper and "we all had a good time." Monday was a crazy day....let the dogs..take Gramma Hansen to the foot Dr., made brownies for a meeting. I had a dr. appt in the p.m. and then went to the C.U. which was not open and to S.P. to pick up some cosmetics, which they did not have. I managed to get through the store without buying anything except an E.F. T-shirt marked down $78.00 to $19.00. The surprise was that Jane who works in upscale casual was really nice...Stasha was the only one I liked in that dept.

later in the evening we went to a Star meeting and served lunch...Gary and I were both tired when we got home around 10:30.

I am really trying to keep Gary out of the sweets and Carbs.....the weight is not that much of an issue, but I worry about his eyes going bad (he needs to see to drive me around LOL), the kidneys failing, the heart and the worse side effect of diabetes is losing a limb. We must start taking time to cook and exercise. It seems like we are always on the run....silly when we are both retired.

I have been noticing that my left eyelid twitches.....I am wondering if that is part of my neck problem. I think I will look it up on the internet. A little bit of knowledge is a dangerous thing.

We were out early this a.m. to go to Lesley's house and the fallen snow was just lovely. I am not usually out that early in the morning. However, I have not done anything since then and it is now 11:15 a.m. i am still in my p.js. Oh well, nothing much going on today except a meeting tonight.

I hope we will be able to go to Chicago on Thurs. If we wait until Sat....maybe the girls will go too...so that is okay too.

I am grateful for many things....but as i read the paper this a.m.....I am most grateful that Jane and Maggie are really careful drivers and don't drink and drive or ride with anyone who does.

Gramma

ordinary Sat.

Gary has taken his Mom to the beauty shop. I have been trying to phone Dorothy, but no answer....I will try later.

Last night we went to the Moose in Geneseo with my brother, Jim. Nothing has changed with his situation. He has more stamina than I do. I can tolerate most things, but not silence. Remember the old saying..."Sticks and Stones will break my Bones, but Silence Breaks the Heart". It is sad for both of them....wasting away the last chapter of their lives.

I ran into 2 of my classmates last night....one just smiled..(did not recognize me) and the other with depends and a walker. I have to keep reminding myself that I am not really that young any more.....oh one more thing...Susan, my neice is dating a 59 year lawyer from Chicago and they are in N.Y. this week-end to see a Broadway show.

Still no shopping, but I do have the Woodfield thing coming up. I hate all my clothes and they all look terrible on me. I don't understand why I buy so many clothes and then they either don't fit or look awful....I am sure there is an under current here that I don't understand, but I am determined not to buy another piece of clothing until I think about it for a very long time....I have to find out what I am doing wrong.

Yesterday when I was in the nail shop there was a man sitting next to me who just had a pedicure. I really did not notice very much until the girls started talking about the red polish, hose, etc. They don't have a clue!!!!

More later....

Pat

Friday

I am different than most writing in their blogs.....as I have to write in the a.m. because I would never get it done in the evening...too tired. This is Friday and I always remember how when I was working how I looked forward to Fri. Now that I am retired it really doesn't have that much meaning to me any more.

I was up early (around 6 a.m.) Gary and I went over to Lesley's house to let out the dogs and take care of the trash, etc. and then Gary had to go to work. I will shower soon and go to the grocery. I am thinking about having the kids for supper on Sun. evening. I think Margie thinks we should upscale the menu if we have a special guest, but I don't think so. This one is for Janie and Maggie and I know they love my sloppy joes. However, I am looking forward to meeting Kevin and Margie is pretty sure that Scott will be coming also.

We will probably go to the Moose for supper tonight. Nothing has changed with my brother and Pauline. Last night we ate supper at USA. Unfortunately, when we eat out, Gary's blood sugar goes sky high....they must put more sugar and butter in everything to make it taste better.

The neighbors have a new puppy. It is a german shepherd-chow mix. I hope it will be a friendly dog when she grows BIG!!! Dr. Dave is getting 2 new dogs this spring from the pound.

I talked with Carol Jo about an hour last night while Gary was at stamp club. She is doing okay but she has a lot of health problems. Her daughter's cancer is back...I hope the Dr. will be able to arrest it again. She is only 52.

I am sure we will be going to Woodfield Shopping Mall on 21 Jan. Until Later

Patty Ann

Thursday

I have just read Janie's blog and it makes me look like I don't do anything....what a schedule...I am so pleased that she is getting very organized. It just makes everything seem so much easier. Now if I could only get myself motivated to organize the basement. I am pretty okay with the upstairs, but I have no idea where I put some things. Most things usually end up in the basement somehow.

Yesterday I played bridge with Joan and friends. I came in 3rd today, but it is great to be reconnecting with Joan and poor Chuck. I need to appreciate my (good health) there are soooo many people my age who are losing their minds or they are having knee, hip, you name it replacements. I have a little trouble with spelling and remembering some words, but not to shabby for 73.

We went to Lesley's house to let out the dogs. The little one is really cute and we don't have to tie them up as they have the invisible fence. Gary left this a.m. to let them out again and then we will return around 4-5 p.m. Phyllis takes the noon and late night shift.

I am looking forward to the kids coming for supper Sunday night. It is hard to get all of them together, but we really should try to do it at least once a month. Max could grow before I see him, oh he will be here tonight....I hope I am home from the beauty shop. I have an appt at 12:00 and it takes about 2 hours. I only go once a month. I love the nail polish that Jane gave me for Christmas and will be using that today.

My plan today is to try to clean the bathrooms upstairs. I hate to think about the one in the basement...I don't have time for that one until we have company. Perhaps no one will want to stay there any more after we had rain come in over Christmas.

I put my flowers in the new vases and I think they look really nice. Gary has not noticed as yet....it is not his thing, but I am proud and supportive of his use of the library with the audio books. He just gets through one and checks out another....all about history. He is also using the treadmill everyday. I have not been able to get back into a routine of exercising, but I will...just not today.

Chris has guests from Austraila (down under) and they leave today. His house is small, so it is hard to get up and get ready for work with so many bodies in the house.

I think we will make a trip to the Apple store in Woodfield 21 Jan.

I am most grateful today that there is no new water in the basement.

Grandma Pat

airport does not work!!!

I just talked with Mediacom....really not expecting to talk to anyone and what do you know...I actually had a live voice He was very patient and talked me through what he thought was wrong with the internet.....It is okay for now....no "circle of death"

Yesterday, I did go shopping but only for fake flowers for my vases, picture frame, I guess that is about all. I loaded up, because I don't have many chances to go to Davenport. Gary is good about taking me when we have appts over there, but he also thinks that I am always using him. We use each other....so what????

I am alone today, as Gary is working and then take him Mom to the hospital for x-ray. I am going to Joan's to play bridge at 11:00. If you ever go to Joan's house, you won't feel sorry for yourself any more. What a saint she is and she sure doesn't deserve to have Chuck lose his marbles right now, but who knows what the future may bring.

We went to E.Star last night for potluck....I think I am losing my taste for potlucks...everyone is getting so old that they don't cook any more and then they buy food from the deli and chicken isn't done....I don't have the nerve to tell her that she should complain....I would!!! Just a thought.

Lesley just called to find out about the dogs....they are on their way to Mexico for a vacation.

Today is Beth, Chris, and Margie's dad's birthday. I think he is 75. We have been divorced 29 years...can that be right???? We have been divorced longer than we were married...27 years. Last night someone said they lived a very boring life and one thing I can say is that my life has never been boring!!!!

I need to finish my book about "Sulley" and I am not buying any more books until I read all these catching dust. The latest book by Augusten Burroughs, I thought was pretty trashy and did not finish it. I thought is would be funny like some of his others....

I may try to call Chris right now....I have to check the time.

Later,

Pat

very busy Monday

I feel like I have been on the treadmill all day. I left the house at 9:30 and did not return until 3:00. I had not been to WW for months...so stopped by there to get a base line and then on to the grocery.

Gary and I then went to Geneseo to have the oil changed in the Buick. I really think Gary has the car fever, but he is strong enough to ignore the urges. When we are in the car or Jeep, he only wants to talk cars.....this is unusual for him.

We are sharing watching Lesleys' dogs with Gary's ex while they are gone on vacation. Hmmmm could be interesting. More later....

I still have not been shopping except for groceries.

Gary's Mom is ill with sore feet...I think just needs new shoes, but what do I know???? He will take her to the hospital for x-ray. Makes me think of those x-ray machines we used to have in the shoe stores when I was a kid. Every Sat. night we would always hit the shoe store so we could see the bones in our feet. Not legal now...thank goodness.

It has been a good day and look forward to a quiet evening. Tomorrow we are busy all day....So sorry I could not have dinner with Jane. I miss the girls. Sorry I missed Chris' call today.

Mom

Reflections

Reflection day.....

If I had my life to live over, I would change a few goals in my life. Through the years I have found that it is much better to have your own money.....it is soooo sweet and freeing. I have been with or without and it is much better to be with!!! If your husband or wife has an income of 1 million per year, it is still good to have your own $$$.

I would spend more time creating a career that I dearly loved rather than a job to pay the rent. I would have been much better qualified to work in the health care in some way, rather than in an office. I had the compassion and fortitude to do that in my younger years. I spent way too much time and energy looking for someone else to take care of me, rather than taking care of myself. I say that with tongue in cheek, as I really LOVE staying home and I think it was a pure luxury to have been at home all those years when my kids were babies and growing up. I can't even imagine how these young mothers bundle up these little babies in this cold and go to work.

My life seems very complete to me right now and there are always "wants" but very little needs. I would like to be a little more self-disciplined, but for the most part, I am fairly happy about how my life turned out. (except I am never happy with my hair, but if I did "I would be in someone else's body") LOL

Enough reflections for today....I love Sunday afternoons and I cheated by not going to church today.

Later I will discuss "What I did for Love" to be continued.

Pat the wife today

p.s. to cold day

I'm back.....Margie and Beth came and we talked and talked and laughed and had lunch.

As Margie was going out the door, I put a piece of candy in my mouth and did something weird to my tooth. I ran to the phone to call Dr. David and he came right over. He pushed a little in my mouth and low and behold....he told me to get a washcloth and bite down on it and it popped back into place. I am not sure if I will get a bill for that house call. LOL Anyway, Dave stayed and visited for some time and we had a good visit. He is a sweetie!!!

Gary is going with Jake tonight to see the Globe Trotters.

More later.....have not been out of the house today...so no shopping today!!! 9 days down and 22 to go for Jan.

You notice I have not mentioned anything about diet and exercise.....I guess I have finally realized that it is what it is and I have an addictive personality so I guess this addiction can't be all that bad. After all, I used to drink and smoke. More about that later too.

today....Mom

Cold Jan day

Another day of not shopping or anything for that matter. It is bitter cold outside, but really beautiful. The snow is lovely before it gets dirty and we have a really pretty view in the back and can watch the birdies feed from the deck.....more later here comes #1 daughter.

Resolutions for 2010

Here goes another year closer to the "Home." Funny how our conversations and thinking, when you reach 70 plus, turns to where am I going and what did I really do with all that time.

I am trying to be very realistic about my resolutions this year. One month at a time....

Jan.....I will not go shopping for anything other than groceries and artificial flowers for my magnetic vases I received for Christmas.

Feb. I will talk less and listen more. I will not give my joy away.!!!!!!!!

Mar. I will enjoy the vacation, rather than enjoying the anticipation of going on vacation. I will resolve not to take too many clothes and not to buy anything that requires a credit card. This may be a hard one, but I will really try to not worry about grandchildren's cars starting or where they are and what they are doing. They are big girls now!!!

April is a big one for me....my birthday. My most memorable birthday was my 16th...a surprise party given by my Mom. I have had a lot of GREAT birthdays since then, but this always stands out in my mind. Hmmmm I resolve not to indulge in so much food this month. It is the month of luncheons and birthday celebrations (nice).

I am up to May....stay tuned and all is subject to change.....

just "Woman" today....no name......